As you will see from the email at the bottom of this entry, I am still in Seoul - it's been a little over 6 months since I arrived. I think I've officially reached a bit of a rut. You will see in my letter below that everything is fine, but.... One of the conclusions I've come to, one of the things I tell people about Seoul, if I'm really trying to sum it up in a nutshell, is this: Seoul is not Berlin. It's not California either. I miss both places and the friends I made in those places tremendously.
I did start that other blog, Jessicaisinkorea.wordpress.com , but that never really went very far. Truth be told, I'm so fond of THIS blog, you know? THIS blog is the one I started... man... 7 years ago... I think I may just continue writing on THIS blog, even though I'm in Seoul and not in Berlin, and even though I don't do nearly as much cool shit here as I did in Berlin, I'm still here, and I should still try to record it.
So, dear readers, I present my Letter to Jason.
So to answer one of your original questions (and thank you for asking ) my parents are still doing well. Still getting on and still getting older. My father's absentmindedness is becoming worse. Since I'm not living with them and only talk to them once a week I'm not there to witness the extent but I have a feeling it may be getting a lil bad. I'm not sure there's much I can do to help and therefore I try not to feel guilty for not being around. But I do look forward to returning home in early March to see them and spend some quality time with them before I leave again. My mom and I are talking about taking a road trip to Minnesota when I come home. That is where her family is from. At this point I am skeptical as to the level of seriousness of this plan. What I mean is, I am serious about it, I'm not sure if my mom is though. I honestly doubt it will happen although I think it'd be great if it did.
As far as another one of your questions - you asked if I was enjoying it here and how I was doing. I am ... um... trying to make the most of it here. I do enjoy it and I'm glad I came and tried teaching. I do enjoy teaching and the job is by far the EASIEST job I have ever had, especially for the money I am making. Sometimes I feel it's quite ridiculous. One of my co-workers is napping at her desk right now, if that gives you an indication of the work style here. Naps are very common and usually in the afternoon, from 1-4:20, I have nothing to do. I don't nap but I make sure my lessons are planned and then end up on the internet.
I thought Seoul would be cooler to be honest. I thought I might find a more underground scene here. Maybe it's because I haven't really networked enough but maybe because an underground doesn't exist. I know a lot of people love Seoul, but it really is a drinker's city. Although I love my IPAs, I'm really not a big drinker. Especially a drinker of watery, weak Korean beer. Or soju. Not into that either. This year could end up just being a nice, relaxing year. So far it seems I haven't managed to stay very present as I spend a lot of time thinking about next year.
I will just say that I will be very very happy to return home when I do, for a number of reasons.
My friend Annika from Finland and I are planning on being back in Berlin next spring/summer. I guess it's been decided, as long as my parents give me the blessing to go, and as long as it feels right. And then back home for Burning Man, where, I, as you, want to do more to contribute. That's going to take some thought... and probably some creative stimuli from Berlin.
The future is still bright and I'm god damn thankful to have the amazing options that I do.
miss ya, really hope to see you next year.
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