I visit my blog and read about the things I was thinking about in days past. Sometimes I hit the "next blog" button at the top of the screen; I usually don't find anything worth reading. Today, though, as I was revisiting my (admittedly neglected) blog, I hit that button and found this: http://pillowtalkisextra.blogspot.com/
It's pretty cool, written by a young 20-something gal in New York City. Hers is a much more personal blog, and many entries deal with men and the problems that come with them, but I like her writing. It's snappy. Kinda like how I think about my own. There's no photo associated with the blog, but given the subject matter, I can understand why she would value her anonymity.
So I read other people's blogs, but I don't keep up with my own. In past entries, I spoke so much of projects, this website that I was going to build, the idea that I could create an awesome space for people to communicate about conscious travel. Sadly, It's still not formed into anything. It makes me feel like I've failed myself. It reminds me of what I need to be doing right now, what I should have been doing for a while. I don't like this feeling of guilt, self guilt. I haven't really let anyone down except for myself. So I don't know if that's better or worse than letting down another person.
I should be devoting more time to building websites, finishing projects, and helping my family. My father has all this radio equipment gathering dust in the garage on the property they own. Some of it's pretty valuable too, or at least could get a pretty price in an online auction. These are the things I need to do.
Usually writing helps me. It helps my thought process gather in one place, from a jumbled together pile in my brain to a linear, succinct story on a page. In note form. Do this, remember that, be grateful for this, and so on. The problem is, unlike Cleopatra Jones, the author (pseudonym, I can only assume) of the aforementioned pillow talk blog, I can't share with you what's really on my mind. It's relationship stuff. I guess that's all I can say.
I have figured out one thing, though, and I would like to share it. If you love something, let it go. Be gentle and don't hold on too tightly.
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I know exactly what you feel when you say writing helps you. I think its one of those things that you are a little hesitant to before you do it but once you do it you end up feeling so good you wonder why you hadn't picked this up earlier. And maybe just because of that, you should pick that one thing up which you always have wanted to do and then start working on it, little by little, day by day. It usually is fun.
Oh and you are welcome to read my blog too. I have been a silent reader of your blog all this while, via google reader :-)
hi this is the frist visit here
good blog
felling is good
You know, I find it astonishingly fortuitous, but I came across your blog after a day or so of seriously considering a bold and blithering move to Berlin and an hour or two of digging around and building a little info-pile for it.
I'm a midtown Sacramento resident, studied in San Diego, lived in Japan for a year and became fluent, did some theatre acting for a while after I got back and then did the boring thing and holed up back at home and decided to try getting a second bachelor's in engineering (first was in psychology). Not doing too bad at it, but life happens, too, and I've come to find the considerable promise of foolhardy adventuring before I get too damn old for it a lot more exciting, so I am deeply curious. I'm 27.
Interesting, too -- though I couldn't guess how much stock you put into such things -- is that you appear to be a female Sag. I still haven't figured out why it might be, but it seems like when it comes to the big decisions, this sort of things makes a difference. I'm a male one, and frankly, I don't count enough of them among my friends. The people around me sometimes wonder why I would do such crazy things. ;-)
Anyhow I'd love to pick your brain a bit on the topic, since I have a feeling I'd learn more from it and prepare better from doing so than perhaps from any other source. I will also read more of your blog. I've got my little share of stories in return, though I confess to having lost some of the spring in my step from my days back in Sactown. Who knows, maybe I will learn a thing or two and find it again.
Look forward to establishing a correspondence, if you dare! ;-)
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I love u kids :)
Hi! I found your blog while I was looking for some info on hotels in Berlin ! I am really impressed, very interesting, stylish, useful! Compliments!
Hi Jess,
a few minutes ago I clicked the button on top of my blog which says "Show next blog" (or so ...) and it took me to you. I read it and what you described felt vaguely familiar to me... so well. Just wanted to say that I like it... and also invite you to have a step over to my blog :).
greetz
I can't share with you what's really on my mind. It's relationship stuff. I guess that's all I can say.
That is so funny, I just clicked the "next blog" button and wound up on your site. great blog!
"I have figured out one thing, though, and I would like to share it. If you love something, let it go. Be gentle and don't hold on too tightly." Thanks for sharing.
I absolutely love this entry , Jess.
Hi Jess! I found you through the expat site. We're moving back to Germany (again) and I just thought I'd search for other bloggers in Germany! Nice to 'meet' you!
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