For William

Wow, blog, it's been FOR-ever!! Strange. I hardly think of you anymore. To tell the truth, I've been avoiding you. I sit here and stare at you and bite my lower lip and grimace. What's making it so difficult for me to return here? And more importantly, why have a felt such little desire over the last year and a half to write anything? Like I said, strange. But it's not new. I avoid this blog a lot. I avoid writing too, even though I love doing it and it's a very cathartic. thing for me. I think it's that you put so much of your self into these things...these blogs, these electronic diaries for everyone to see -- it's not even so much the time or energy but for me it's the exposure. The . Although I know that you don't know me and I don't know you (this is not necessarily an entirely true assumption) that it's One thing I know, I came back to revisit the past a little -- It's been a long time since I sat down and read any of my past entries. It's I think about quitting my blog a bit more than seldom these days. In fact, I think I had convinced myself it was done. . I think about creating a new one and I think about re-starting the old one.